Monday, April 4, 2016

fangirl

Alternative title: The Time Jon Foreman Pronounced My Name Correctly



It was the night for which I had been waiting months. Nothing was stopping me from seeing my favorite band of all time that had finally decided to venture to Oklahoma. I was even prepared to attend this concert all by myself. I didn’t have many friends who loved Switchfoot as much as I did; this most likely attests to the reason they rarely played in concert in this state. Sure, going to a concert with your dad might not be ideal, but at least I was going.  
This concert was going to be different. Switchfoot’s newest album Fading West was actually the soundtrack to their documentary of the same name. As part of their tour, they were screening the Fading West documentary directly before each concert. I was less interested in seeing the movie, but I couldn’t pass up an opportunity to see my favorite band play. So, on November 22, 2013, my dad and I arrived in Tulsa to see the concert. The wait was excruciating. We stood in line outside the Brady Theater in the cold for over an hour. We waited for the employees to scan each ticket as guests entered the building. We waded through the crowd in a desperate attempt for a good seat. We waited for the movie to begin. When the documentary was over, we waited for the band to come out. At one point, I thought the real concert was about to start, but it was only one of the band members announcing that they would be taking questions via Twitter. That distracted me for a while; I tweeted them a couple of questions that had intrigued me since I became a fan. But that distraction lasted only a moment. I still had to wait… and wait… and wait… until finally the lights dimmed, and I saw the outline of five male figures walk on to stage. I screamed and cheered with the rest of the crowd as the lights beamed up and the first notes of my favorite song of all time, “Stars,” began to play. The wait was over.
The band played mostly new songs, but one stood out in particular. From the very first note, “When We Come Alive” effused hope and inspiration. The beat filled the room with energy, and the lead singer Jon Foreman sang with passion. Even though it was the first time I had heard the song, I couldn’t help but smile and sway to the music, singing along as I learned the words. Jon Foreman engaged the crowd as he waved his arms, signaling for us to follow along with him. I followed his every movement.
Suddenly, he jumped down off the stage and into the crowd, which stepped back as if parting the waters, so that Jon Foreman could walk through on dry ground. Or, at least, on empty chairs. Every person he walked by clamored for his attention, raising their hands, jumping up and down, and snapping photos. But no one in that moment was more excited than me. In my anticipation, I bounced up and down on my toes, hoping against hope that he would make his way towards us. Could I really have the chance to see my idol, my celebrity crush, my favorite singer and songwriter, up close? It was too good to even consider. I knew that he would most likely stop in a part of the crowd that I wasn’t, and then head back to the stage to keep singing. So convinced was I of this that I could hardly believe it when I realized that Jon Foreman was walking in a path straight down the middle of the crowd, directly towards me. I turned to my dad with the biggest grin on my face. I had no words, so I just kept jumping up and down and pointing in the direction of Jon Foreman. Then I got smart, and pulled out my phone. I wanted to live in the moment and enjoy this concert in person as much as possible, but I just had to catch this moment on video so I could relive it over and over. I took my phone out, but I was more intently focusing on Jon Foreman wading through the crowd while he sang. My heart raced faster and faster with each step that he took. And suddenly, there he was, standing in the same row as me. He stopped right there, right next to me, to finish the song. Had I been a little bit taller and my arms just a few inches longer, I could have touched him. There was only one body standing in between Jon Foreman and me, and I was so excited I could hardly breathe. He raised his microphone and finished the song with a resounding, “Yeaah!”
I clapped and cheered and jumped up and down along with the rest of the crowd around me. We were in awe of what was unfolding.
“In this moment,” Jon Foreman said through gasping breaths, “I want us to have a campfire.”
My thoughts drifted as I listened to him speak. Wouldn’t it be nice to sit around an actual campfire with Jon Foreman, I thought. Up close and personal. Just sitting there, having a real conversation with a real, incredible, larger-than-life human being.
“This is a small venue, and I feel as if we are all a close group of friends relaxing and rewinding around a campfire. So let’s have a conversation,” he continued in his slow, silky voice. “Earlier we asked you to send us some questions. Your questions travelled all the way above the atmosphere,” he pointed upwards, “to a satellite. That satellite translated your questions and transcribed them onto paper, and then they travelled back down to earth in this very building, where I have them now.”
The crowd laughed at his surprisingly successful attempt to romanticize the process of copying down tweets to paper.
“It’s magical!” he said as he pulled out several pieces of paper from his jacket pocket. “So now, I’d like to answer your questions. My first question comes from Gatlyn A.”
My mouth dropped open. Nothing like this had ever happened to me before. I was never the one to win something in a drawing. I was never the one who caught a t-shirt or other prize among a crowd. I had never seen a celebrity up close. And I definitely had never stood within three feet of my favorite artist as he said my name.
“Gatlyn A?” he repeated. I realized I hadn’t made myself known. The entire theater was silent, waiting for me to respond to Jon Foreman. But I couldn’t speak. I was so shocked and excited, and my heart was beating so hard, that if I had said anything it probably would have come out with a crack. Or worse, I might have cried. So instead, I opted to awkwardly raise my hand and bounce on my toes.
Finally, Jon Foreman turned around and saw me.
“You’re Gatlyn?” he asked.
I nodded vigorously and grinned enormously.
He reached down his hand to shake mine. I hoped he didn’t notice how much my whole body was already shaking from excitement and nerves. “I’m so glad you’re here tonight, Gatlyn! This is magical,” he said, and repeated his earlier metaphor.
It certainly is magical, I thought to myself, barely maintaining my composure.
I know he answered my question, and I tried to listen, but I only vaguely remember what he said. The moment was so surreal, and I needed to process everything. There were so many times that I tried to share my excitement with my dad, but every time I turned around I could only smile like a maniac, grab his arms, and shake him over and over. There was a feeling deep in my gut, stemming from nervousness, which travelled all the way up to my throat and prevented me from speaking. I knew if I even tried to speak, the tears would immediately come.
It was not until days later that I realized what was most magical about the night. It was not that Jon Foreman came out into the crowd and stood right next to me. It was not that Jon Foreman chose my question to answer out of hundreds, and chose to answer it first no less. It was not even that Jon Foreman shook my hand and spoke directly to me. It was that Jon Foreman said my name, my confusing, hard-to-pronounce name, out loud, and he said it correctly. And that night, because of that moment, was truly the best night of my life. 

Next time, I’ll tell you about the time Jon Foreman complimented my t-shirt.